leeeeeensssss

I was working so hard. everything was working and i spent so much time putting the idea of patience into practice and it all just gets trashed because of a misunderstood text message. Theres a reason why I refuse to converse through text when it needs to be serious. You never know exactly how or what people mean by what they say. I’ve started arguments in the past because I took a text the wrong way without figuring out what it really meant. It caused extremely unecessary problems for the person on the receiving end and I tried my best not to ever do that to anyone based on a text. But that never stopped anyone from doing it to me. My text was perceived negatively but my efforts to clear up the misunderstanding were ignored. I hate how texting has become a tone-related thing. Where if you don’t put an ‘lol’ or smiley after a phrase then you are being too serious. And if you give one worded replies then you are annoyed with the person. If you don’t reply immediately then you just don’t care. Theres no way you can tell how a person really feels or sounds through written words unless they straight out tell you how they feel. This has caused me more stress than I can handle. I’m still practicing patience and I think I did a good job on my own today. I don’t want to feel like all the time I spent thinking and my efforts are ruinned based on a perception of a text message. I want to continue making the great efforts and be there for those I love but right now I’m super sad and I feel denied. One cannot pick him/herself up alone at a time like this.